new old stuff from uad art

my art therapy has stopped now but has was collecting my stuff came across some old stuff most done while in hospital for 5 months well u gotta do summat so thought i would add them on here if u look hope u like UAD

art

art'n'me

just an update on 'stuff' pic 1 is poem i wrote today in my art therapy group pic 2 and 3 are drawings i did a while ago and found em in 1 of my folders pic 4 is ME pic 5 is a 'project i did using various materials hence some colour not my usual style blood near rats is my own 'real blood' just to add affect lol UADx

                                                    ME UAD AND ART

artwork by UAD

JUST A SAMPLE OF SOME OF MY ART HOPE U LIKE ??

poems by UAD

LAYING NEXT TO MY POOL OF RED,
WAITING IN VAIN TO JOIN THE DEAD,
TO BE DRAGGED INTO THE BLACK,
NEVER WANTING TO COME BACK,
BUT THE COLD, THE FREEZING COLD,
TAKES ME OVER MY BLADE I COULDN'T HOLD,
I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO FROZEN LIKE I DID THAT NIGHT,
MY BLOOD WAS RED AND MY BODY WAS WHITE,
WANTING TO BLEED MORE AND ESCAPE THIS LIFE,
YET THE DEMON COLD STOPPED ME HOLDING THE KNIFE,
I TRIED AND TRIED BUT MY HANDS STAYED FROZEN,
SO MY HEALING WOUND I COULDNT RE-OPEN,
MY IGNORANCE DIDN'T SEE THIS AS A SIGN,
THAT EBBING AWAY WAS THIS LIFE OF MINE,
NO PAIN I FELT JUST FELT COLDER AND COLDER,
IN A MOMENT OF WEAKNESS I REACHED OVER MY SHOULDER,
THIS BLOOD AND THIS LIFE MEANT NOTHING TO ME,
YET THE FREEZING COLD WOULDNT LET ME BE,
FEELING A FAILURE I CALLED FOR ASSISTANCE,
WISH I'D WAITED DIDN'T WANT AN AMBULANCE,
10 MINUTES OR SO LATER AND I PASSED OUT,
MY LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN OVER THERES NO DOUBT,
I LIVE IN REGRET ABOUT THE EVENTS OF THAT NIGHT,
SO CLOSE YET SO FAR AWAY IT'S JUST NOT RIGHT.

poems by UAD

THE LEAVE'S ARE FALLING FROM THE TREE'S,
THE WIND BLOW'S THEM AROUND AS IT PLEASE'S,
NOW THHE TREE'S ARE BARE AND ALL EXPOSED,
BRANCHES LOOK EERIE AS THEY SWAY IN THE DARK,
THIS IS A SCENE FROM MY FAVOURITE TIME OF THE YEAR,
AUTUMN INTO WINTER REFLECTS HOW MY LIFE HAS BECOME,
COLD, BLEAK AND GETTING DARKER EACH DAY,
COLDER THAN COLD NO LOVE HERE TO KEEP ME WARM,
BLEAK IS MY OUTLOOK CANT SEE NO FUTURE FOR ME,
DARKER THAN THE DARKEST WINTER NIGHT IS MY LIFE,
NO LIGHT IN THIS WORLD THERE'S NO SPRING OR SUMMER HERE,
JUST GIVE ME MY WINTER LANDSCAPES THAT MAKE ME WHO I AM,

poems by UAD

MISERY IS MY PLACE TO DWELL IN,
HAPPINESS IS JUST A FLEETING SIN,
A SMILE TO HIDE THE DEPRESSION ,
BUT INSIDE THERE'S NO ELATION,
ISOLATING MYSELF FROM THIS COLD WORLD,
NO ONE TO SPEAK TO OR TO HOLD,
THIS LIFE WILL FADE INTO THE DARK,
A NOBODY WHO NEVER LEFT THEIR MARK.

STUFF BY UAD

LIFE IS ALL ABOUT DEATH,
FROM UR 1ST TO LAST BREATH,
ONLY ONE THING IS FORE SURE,
THAT ONE DAY YOU'LL BREATH NO MORE.




I SCREAM IN ANGER AND IN PAIN,
BUT NO ONE CAN HEAR ME, SO I SCREAM AGAIN....

poems by UAD

CANT SEE IF I'M GOING FORWARD,
BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO LOOK BACK,
MY PAST IS HAUTING ME WHEREVER I GO,
BUT MY FUTURE SEEM BLACKER THAN BLACK,
ONE STEP FORWARD YET FEEL FURTHER AWAY,
IF I START TODAY WILL I EVER REACH TOMORROW.
BUT YESTERDAY SEEMS A BETTER PLACE TO BE,
INFRONT OF ME  A SCENE OF TEARS AND SORROW,
HAS I PREPARE FOR DARKNESS AND DEATH,
BEHIND ME ARE MEMORIES OF A LIFE I ONCE HAD,
NOW I FEEL MY LIFE IS STUCK IN LIMBO,
EITHER FORWARDS OR BACK MAKES ME FEEL SAD

poems by UAD

MY LIFE IS GOING NOWHERE,
BUT FOR THIS LIFE I DONT CARE,
ENDLESS DAYS OF DEPRESSION AND PAIN,
I KNOW MY LIFE WONT BE THE SAME AGAIN,
MY PROBLEMS HAVE WON I'M DEAD INSIDE,
I FEEL WORTHLESS I NEED TO HIDE,
ALL MY EMOTIONS FEEL SO NUMB,
WAITING FOR MY LAST BREATH TO COME.

my tatts

my back tattoo took 16 hrs 4x4hr sessions a dragon flying with bats over a waterfall my idea but created by my tattooist at bottom is a graveyard scene wit the words "nothing lasts forever" on it again my idea but tattooist work below is a pic of skull trying to escape from my skin my idea but tattooists handywork next is wording by myself "rejected by life welcomed by death"  next is skull clock saw and liked so had it tattooed next again my idea and wording but drawn up by tattoist for me "beautiful death" i wish lol this i spotted somewhere on fb but altered it to fit my style of tattoo's next these are lyrics from a song by "otep" loved em when heard em so had em tattooed on me next this was 2 seperate tattoo's i had made into 1 "deja vu" was a band i was in i played drums badly next is death in all his glory i really wante this so the scythe went over my ear told my tattoist my plan and this was result 1 of my best tatts well have lots more tatts just given u a selection so u can maybe get a feel to who i am thanx for looking  

UAD'S GOTH N STUFF

Hi anyone who's looking? this is my 1st attempt at blogging so if crap let me know? I met MAVIS/KAZ on a site last night and because we both do poems well she does i do crap stuff but said i should try putting some of my "crap stuff" on here so i am. A warning 1st my world is very dark and so is my "stuff" some poems and some drawing also some mixed but always about the darker side of life esp my life so explain a bit about myself to u..... am 47 love goth / metal music also tattoo's again mostly dark about 60 of em lol piercings about 20 and dying my hair, my hairs been dyed since was 15 so 32 years of dying it and stil got some left to dye lol so now u know a bit about me will leave u alone and put on some of my "goth'n'stuff" for u to browse thru at will any comments will be welcomed and replied to thhanx for looking mex